Here I am again. Second time today.

 

I'm in a holding pattern. Hope it doesn’t last forever. Hope it’s temporary.

Why all this talk of liquidation? I don’t have that much to relinquish.

Why all this talk of endgame and medication and all-on-one-level.

I seem to remember all this from my bedroom, late in the evening when I was to be asleep

The grown-ups discussing the veranda on South Beach,

The burial plots in the coquina,

Wills and estates.

Is it a curse, this conversation, like a plague revisited, generation to generation?

Why does it seem I’m going through these things twice.

(Oh! Wait, someone already said that)

5 mg twice a day

500 mg as needed.

2.5 mg x 8 same time every week

4:00 pm everyday over one or two ice cubes when the weather is hot, straight up during a snowstorm.

If this is the holding pattern than it could be worse.

It could always be worse.